Thursday, May 08, 2008

Those were the days, my friend...

...I thought they'd never end...


...when my children brought me fresh picked bouquets of these:




...and ran around the yard blowing these and making wishes:


Can someone tell me when I will stop missing my old life? I don't hate my life now, but it seems that my old life and my new life are at odds with each other.


I miss having all 4 of my kids home with me. I miss homeschooling them and juggling all that I did. I miss the crazy schedules, fights over the bathroom and squabbles over whose turn it is to do the dishes.

But...I always knew I would need to work again someday--(it just happened earlier than I thought/planned), I like my job and work for a company that does great things and helps families in need of support. I, and all of us still at home, like having a little more breathing room in our budget. I like giving my son's music lessons and going to movies once in a while, and being able to afford shoes when they need them, or dentist appointments and orthodontia, having a dependable car, and being able to take trips once in a while!

I keep thinking I am having a case of empty nest syndrome yet I don't have an empty nest. I have two boys still at home whom I love with all my heart. I think I am having something called,
anticipation of empty nest syndrome!!!

4 comments:

Nancy Face said...

My daughter is my best friend! I haven't needed a best friend outside the family. She will be married in September, and I'm so happy for her, but it's going to be very different, and I will miss her TONS!

Karen said...

Kim, I think I know how you feel. It seems that when the first one or two leave home, you realize how fast it all goes. Since Joe left in January, I feel like life is a runaway train and it's only a matter of time before all my kids will be gone. I miss having the nest full and knowing that at night we're all tucked in together. I understand about the working thing too. I like my job, am grateful I can work from home. But it sure does get in the way of real life!

annie said...

I understand too. After Izzy's accident I grieved for my old life. Things were so different. I think it's all about perspective and constant adjustments.

Thank you so much for the card and cute stickers!!! I loved that.

Hope you have a wonderful Mother's Day! You are an awesome mom!

gail@more than a song said...

I know what you're talking about! There are days I still miss having all 4 of mine at home too....and it was hard when the first one left, it was all so fast after that!
Your son is so sweet to send you that note and flowers!