I am tired of being treated like the oldest child/daughter while my 44 year old sister is still being treated like a baby.
There are some things I just don't have within me to fix and my heart is feeling quite bruised and broken tonight. I opened a big can of worms that the rest of my family has been dancing around with their eyes closed for several years and the worst part is that they seem to have rewritten history in their minds to make themselves look better.
After talking with them I feel like I have just had a 20 minute session of banging my head against a brick wall. I really don't like being accused of things that didn't happen, or of things I never said. I am tired of being treated like the bad guy when I express that I have been hurt.
Frankly, I am just plain tired of thinking about my family and this elephant in the closet. My parents don't know about my blog, so wishing my father a happy Father's Day here is kind of moot point as he won't see it. But I don't think that after the *discussion* we all had on the phone tonight that I will be seeing him on Sunday.
I think I will try to stick my head in the sand like the rest of my crazy family, and crawl in to bed with my book.
Tomorrow is new day.